Muppetpastor 3.0

It’s been a while again.

The short version is we moved, things went pear-shaped in multiple ways, we lived out of a motel for a bit, then found an apartment and have been scrambling for employment and the like to pay utilities and rent.

The longer version is more of that, with added swearing.

Mylo - Emotion 98.6

I seem to have come across a lack of desire to be online as much as I used to, with a forced separation from the internet like I had.

I check email, read some web pages I always did, then log off and go play a video game or watch TV. I see no need to sit online and do nothing.

It’s odd, when I think about it. I wonder why I’m not even worse than before. I’m not, though.

The Smashing Pumpkins - The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning

I have a job now, same job I’ve been doing. I work with 3 mentally retarded men in their home. 40 hours a week, mostly on weekends.

I like the job, not so much on working 40 hours in 3 days, two of which are 16 hour shifts. It’s an easy job, as they go. I just dislike the lack of sleep I get for two days a week.

I never used to look forward to sleep so much, either. I think it’s because I’ve worried a lot lately.

Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly - Whitewash is Brainwash

With jobs come paychecks, and with those come…freedom, after the bills are paid. It’s been a long time since I’ve done anything for myself, at least in that fun, frivolous way. It’s really been all about me, surviving.

Survival is NOT living. There is more to life than barely scraping by.

I want something fun. Some laughs, smiles, even just a bemused look or two for a bit.

I think I deserve it. I know I don’t have to sacrifice to be happy. Hard lesson, learned.

Tori Amos - Raspberry Swirl

And as for here? I think I can manage, though I might not always have something to say. I’m happy, and I’ll leave it at that.

Live - Iris

See you next week. Really.